How I inspired myself

And then there comes that day when you feel awfully down and there’s nothing that could help you. Your mind has no control of what happens inside of the head. Your soul is crying from inside. It screams and looks for help. But there is nobody who can reach out to you because all of the feelings have been long time ago blocked and no outer world can see them. You have reached an extraordinary high level of being an introvert human being. Thankfully, your body is healthy enough and you are enjoying all the good things the world has to offer, for example, sunny day and rainy nights when all you want to do is to sit and relax. Re-think your life and try to fix the things that have gone wrong some time ago. There is nothing that could calm your mind down. It’s not necessary. Let the mind do what it has to. There is always one great tip how to get yourself back on feet – inspire yourself. Look for inspiration through everyday things and try to do your greatest efforts on whatever you are best of. Try something new. Let your ideas be your guide and calm your soul by doing that. Whenever I have something serious on my mind I either go to a workout or just walk around city where I live in at the moment. Put yourself on a pause and make plans for the future. Write them down. You have to be passionate about what you do. Also work on the ideas that you have, not just think about them.
Whenever I share my ideas with someone I expect them to be as much passionate as I am. It almost never happens that way. People give you so much negativity that you might even think that the idea is not worth working on and you shall quit it not even started. But do try and look what happens. Of course, you won’t see the results straight ahead, but if you quit you haven’t been passionate enough to make the idea count.
My life has taught me that everything happens for a reason and for the best. You just always have to be aiming straight and concentrate on what you want to achieve. Don’t be afraid that people shall not understand you and look weird at what you have in your mind. They will always give sarcasm and try to speak you of what you have in mind. Take risks, they are worth it. One of my life’s motivational thoughts is: “I never loose. Either I win or learn.”
All of my life, as long as I remember myself, I wanted to live the rich and wealthy lifestyle. Everything I cared about was money and nothing else was on my mind. My lifestyle included few hours of sleep every day for a year and a half. At the end I just saw that I haven’t gone further than I was before. The effort I gave was not good enough and things just didn’t happen the way I wanted. Everything collapsed, but I never lost the belief in myself and kept going. As I look back to that period of my life it just seems that I was smashing my head into the wall and was waiting for a miracle to happen. It just doesn’t work that way. I will tell you why. I was too much into earning money I forgot to live my life; I forgot what family means to me and got so far of them. I travelled to other countries and tried to find myself there. That never did happen. Already then I knew that you have to be passionate about what you do. For more than a year my lock screen quote was “The only way to do great work is to love what you do.” (by Steve Jobs). I was looking each and every day at this quote and was letting it to go deep in my brains. Now I have to admit that I’m there. I never gave myself up. I have reached the point where I do what I love most. Money is just secondary value. “The best things in life are free. The second best are very expensive” (Coco Chanel)
This is what a commitment looks like. Each and every one of us has our separate road to go on. It’s all about our value tree and things we love. We should never be scared. Everybody should work with themselves as much as it is possible. Don’t be afraid of what come into your life. Just open up to the world and see how your life changes. If you wish something very much and the passion is all yours about it, eventually you shall manage to achieve it. Don’t be afraid. If something is not working, if something has not the best ending as you wished, don’t give up, keep working. Make sure that you inspire yourself as much as possible. Give it some time and plan ahead. Always look straight up to the goal and do the work. Things will happen and you will be happier. 

Roland Sel /// amantpenseur

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Īsa atzīšanās mīlestībā

 Īsa atzīšanās mīlestībā:

Lai vai kā mums ir gājis, lai vai kas ar mums, starp mums, par mums, bez mums, un ir bijis.... Svarīgi ir tikai tas, kā mēs jūtamies šobrīd. Vai tik viss nav tā ? Pēc tām sajūtām un jūtām, kuras jūtam mēs tagad? Tā ir vēstule. Tā ir atzīšanās. Atzīšanās mīlēstībā. Atzīšanās Tev. Tas ir lūgums. Lūgums tikt saprastam. Pieņemtam. Aplī ieliktam. Punktā noliktam. Tas ir par mums, par mani un par Tevi. Stāsts par to, kā mēs satikāmies un kā mums viss ir gājis. Nav jau svarīgi vairs tas, kas pirms gadiem bijis. Svarīgs ir tas, kas ir tagad. Plāni, vēlmes un cerības. Mīlestība. Draudzība. Iespēja saprast vienam otru. Esmu sapratis es tikai to, ka bez Tevis es nevaru. Bez Tevis es esmu nekas. Nevaru vairs būt es. Nu ir laiks nācis. Gribu es būt mēs. Es un Tu esam mēs. Veidojam, pilnveidojam, jūtam līdzi. Es zinu, esmu bijis muļķis. Dzīvē pieļautas milzum daudz un dikti tās kļūdas. Tās ir saprastas. Dod, lūdzu, dod man to iespēju labot tās. Mēs to varam. Zinu tikai to, ka es to gribu. Jautājums paliek tikai tāds - vai arī tas ir tas, ko Tu vēlies?

Atkal, jā, atkal izlikt savas jūtas spēju es tikai rakstos.

Nekad nav bijis viegli. Smagi aizbraukt, grūti palikt. Neiespējami satikt.

Neticu, ka tas viss paliks tā. Noteikti, ka ir tā, ka nemaz nevēlos es tam noticēt. Kā Tev šķiet?

Esmu saskaities gana bieži. Esmu mīlējis akli. Esmu saskaities traki. Uz sevi skaities. Ak, vai, cik traki.

Kafijas krūze nu ir beigta. Līdz ar mīlestībā atzīšanos.

Tu esi, Tu būsi un Tu vienmēr, vienmēr, paliksi Tur. Sirdī un dziļi, jo dziļi dvēselē. Tevis man trūkst, Tu man esi nepieciešama. Bez Tevis es nevaru. /cik gan ļoti savtīgi. pavisam iespējams, ka viss šis ir pavisam nevietā... es par vēlu nāku. taču, esmu tāds, kāds esmu. blīkšķis. (kaimiņu suns ierejās un trauksme nu ir sacelta.)/ Vai var vēl salkanāk? Protams, ka var. Vienmēr var. Visu var. Tu....

Jo, tikai tad, kad Tu saproti, ko esi zaudējis - izproti tā īsto vērtību un nozīmi. Šķiet, ka ar mani jau tā nekad nenotiks... Es tak zinu to teoriju. Tieši tā. Teoriju, tikai teoriju! Ar to vien ir par maz.

Šī, iespējams, ir mana pēdējā vēstule Tev. Mana pēdējā ziņa Tev. Tu man tikai pasaki. Saprašana ir tik tālu, ka tikai draugi nebūsim. No manas puses nebūsim. Tad nu labāk es bēgu un skrienu tālu, tālu prom. Meklēju sevi kaut kur citur... Veldzēju slāpes tās dzelmē tajā.

Tā vien šķiet, ka tas jau sen ir noticis...

Milzīgs prieks Tevi zināt, ar Tevi runāt un laiku bija pavadīt kopā lieliski. Visam labajam reiz pienāk gals, lai mūsu dzīvēs varētu nākt kaut kas jauns un pavisam skaidrs. Gluži kā grāmatā kādā lapu pāršķirt un nodaļu jaunu atvērt.

Lai dzīvē lieliski iet! Uz veselību!

Rolands Seļakovs // amantpeneur

It's all about timing

A cup of hot, hot coffee. A joy and smile on my face. It's raining outside! Oh, yes it is. Candles are lit. Room gets warmer. Heart opens up and the day can start. What is your daily morning ritual? Tell about it to yourself! Are you late sleeper or you like to wake up early to be everywhere on time?
As for me, I love the days when I can answer for my time and all the things I do. Actually, I love those kind of days. I can drink a coffee or two. Look out through all the windows I can find and just enjoy the view. The leaves have already fallen down. It's all naked. Gray. People in dark clothes. Where is all the fun? Colors, where did you go? Where is your yellow umburella and that furry coat that you have been hiding? It's time to take them out from that far, far corner!
Luck. What is luck? It's all about timing. Be at the right place and time. Do what you feel like doing. It's feeling lucky. Every day can be lucky if you make as one! Mind decisions you make by waking up every morning.
Every day is a great daay. You can make your dreams to come true! It's all about trying and never giving up on yourself. Whenever you are low, think about the times you were high. Reminisce about the great times you have had in the past. But when you're high, don't forget how it is to be down.
It is said that it is wealth to have feelings. Don't you hide them from all. Share them with everybody you feel to do it. Don't forget about it. Give the best from you and never wait for a thing back. Learn to give. Don't wait for something given back. It's all about the choices You and I make. About those decisions you take on. Keep yourself on the track - Road of Happiness it's called.

Choice is one.

Don't you be one, 

Instead of being alone, be The One!

What your life is all about?
Have to say that life is a great adventure, the perfect journey. And you're the head of it. Make it count. Live it to all your best and make it count. Don't be afraid to fail. That's the way we can see you are trying to get something done. Just remember to give a good second try to things you want! Afterall, at the end you might even love what you are doing out there! Fall inlove, learn to forgive. Know how to fight and stand for your ideas, your dreams. Stand for yourself because nobody else will. Be yourself.
Keep your positive thoughts always up in the head. Let them flow into you, through your veins. Feel the happiness in every day that's given to you.
Remember: It's all about timing and that's what counts. Just don't forget, that you create the world you live. You are also responsible for the time and ways how you use it.

Special time of the year!

There is this special time of the year that makes you happy. It is incredible how fast you can think of something really cool and a moment later you have already forgotten about it. Try to catch the real moment and take some time. Let the moment draw you the way you want to go and what places are you going to see in the future. It's all about the decisions you make.
Tonight I ran along the roads of dreams. Some lines are fading far away, but some are freshly painted on the road. The road you and I walk. Sometimes we use the stairs, sometimes it's an elevator. It doesn't matter as long as you get to the point you are heading. It was a river. River full of life. Full of everything that counts. Full of love and joy. Happiness. That's what it was all about. Make yourself happy in a particular way. Your way.
I questioned myself why am I running. Why do I do it? The answer was simple. I run to prove myself that I can. It's a great way how to gain your body strength and a perfect way how to achieve healthy mind. I prove to myself that I can overcome difficulties. It's getting harder and harder to run further. But what's the line you want to overcome? How far are you ready to go and what steps are you ready to take?!
Do you remember the guy who gave up? No? Neither do I! That's why we should never give up!
This is the evening I ran "challenge myself" route. It's not too long I should say. Approx 20km. But the point is that my thoughts about giving up is already at the very beginning which is after about 3km. It's constant mind work. That's a passion for what you do. If you really want to get something done, push as hard as you can. Get over the limits. Beat yourself. Beat your time and the length of your route. Overcome yourself and be the best you can. Do what makes you happy. Live to it's fullest. Be you and don't hide behind the walls you build. Instead of hiding, build a door and windows so somebody can find you! Don't prove things to someone else. Prove it to yourself and that's what counts.
Reminisce the roads in winter, the rivers in autumn, the sandy beaches in summer and the trees blossoming in spring. See the life around you. Be the life, be the light!

Dreamchaser

It is very admiring how the time flies you by. It never stops, it just winks and smiles.
Things are changing, they are growing. Fast, sometimes even too fast. But just feel the flow and cope with it. Then there is nothing else left for you to do. Start to do some work. Either work for yourself or for someone else. The choice still remains yours. You are the one who is responsible for everything. Just try to do and try to be the best you can possibly be. In all times that is what is the most appreciated. Don't you be lazy, just sometimes a bit hazy. Let your life to be, let flow to run through your veins. Dream a dream. Make it big. At first it could feel like unachievable but then think a bit more about it. Start to do few small things connected with the dream. If you would start working for that even a bit more, everything would seem achievable. It's just the work and the time you need. Take it, do it. Try the best and push yourself to the limits. Once you have done that, the horizon of your abilities starts to grow together with you. Make your dreams and wishes to count. You are somebody and you can. Chase your dream like somebody running away from horror. Be passionate of what you do. Put your heart in it. Live and breathe with the thought that there's nothing to stop you. Because you can! When you come to the point where your dreams are becoming your aims, nothing is impossible and everything becomes a reality.
Dream, think, organize and do! Chase the dream, chase that aim.

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Mēs varam būt lieliskas apkalpošanas sejas. Ir tikai jāizlemj kādā mēs līmenī to visu vēlamies pasniegt. Jo pozitīva domāšana un vārdu zināšana mūs var aiznest arvien, arvien tālāk. Tik vien tālu cik mēs gribam un spējam. Tikai, ar katru reizi mēs iespējam vēl un vēl vairāk. Ātrāk, stiprāk, dziļāk, justāk. Ar lielu un spēcīgu drusku. Tādu ļoti justu. Ar sajūtām. Un tā ir dzīve kādai tai jābūt. Ar sajūtām tādām. Nav iespējams izskaidrot. Tādām ir jābūt. Tādas ir jājūt.

Pāri visam tam, man tika nozagts darba telefons, sabojāts garstāvoklis, miegs visu dienu un izlaidums vienu nakts. Protams - arī negulētas naktis un pilnmēness tuvums. Dienas burvīgas.